I finally realized I needed mental health therapy which helped me understand myself in ways I never did before and I learned a lot of insight and I am ready to start living now.
When I was young I was brought up by my stepfather and my mom and I was physically abused by both of them. I was always neglected and my mom never showed me any love or caring. She told me my real father raped her and she took it out on me and she was never comfortable around me and did everything she could to get rid of me until I ended up living with my aunt,ย where I was sexually abused by my older cousin. When I told my family they all called me a liar especially my mom. My mom used to kick me out of the house when I was 13 until I found the gang who took me in and treated me like family. At 14 my mom saw me driving a stolen car and she called the police on me, and from that day on incarceration became a revolving door. She searched my clothes when I slept looking for anything to have me arrested again. I have never stayed out of prison longer than six months since 1994. I was unhappy with myself and my life, and I did not know how to control my emotions. I was angry at the world and lived on the edge hoping I died somehow by someone else’s hand.ย
This is my fourth term in prison and on this term alone I have been incarcerated 18 straight years and during this time I finally reached out for mental health therapy, and it helped me change and I am wiser now and rehabilitated. Nobody in my family helps me with any financial support or any support at all. I have committed crimes in the past which I am sorry for and regret and my family cut me off because of what I told them about my cousin. I left the gang life ten years ago and my release date is 2029 and I have no money or anyone on the outside.
