The love we have for our kids is special because they can hear our hearts from the inside, and no one else can.
Since I’m not good with words when trying to express my inner life, I’ll just try my best. I think back to when I was too timid to attend my father’s funeral. I was distraught and distressed by how fast he left us. If I could rewind time, I wish I could have been there to say goodbye and tell him I love him. Love is a strong, warm feeling of deep concern and commitment. To me, love is also intimate, sincere, and comforting when it comes to relationships. But love can be dangerous because it can consume our peace. Our hearts choose who we want to love. The love we have for our kids is special because they can hear our hearts from the inside, and no one else can. My family is the most indispensable part of my life. I know I’ve made bad choices and gone the wrong way at times. Life on drugs is a real struggle—no doubt. I’ve been out there, experienced some of the games, and regret that I ever started. What would really surprise my family is if I quit smoking and stayed sober, that would amaze them. What I miss most is spending quality time with my kids. It didn’t mean much to me when I was out there doing the most partying, gambling, etc. That was all that seemed important at the time. I do miss going to church with my mom. She’s my inspiration, and I miss her so much now that she’s left the island. I feel vulnerable, and I just hope she’ll be back soon. When I need comfort, I love listening to music, it really soothes my mind. I also like reading a little, especially books on biology, religion, and novels. And I enjoy playing cards, too.
