No matter how much self help you take, you still have to understand the why.
I’m really big on childhood trauma, and as I get older, I start to realize how it affected me. Not to minimize the wrong idea, but just to understand the root of it. That’s how I can truly start that process of being remorseful. For so many years, I just acted like I really haven’t been doing anything. I did it wrong, but not really understanding why. No matter how much self help you take, you still have to understand the why. Why did I make those bad decisions on those days? What was going through my mind? How did I normalize that behavior as a child? So, as a 34 year old man, I really want to put emphasis on childhood trauma because it really shapes the way we think and how we react in certain situations. If we don’t acknowledge that and really allow the youth to get those resources moving forward, this cycle will continue to happen.
Yearning to be Heard
I stand here today, emphasizing
what it feels like to be trapped.
Whether mentally or physically-
stuck, hurt, pain, shame portrayed,
I guess you could say it’s all the same.
Abandoned, abused, misused, and accused.
Some call it cruel
while others say it was my destiny to lose,
to lose something that I never even had,ย
but the mere thought of it makes me sad or even mad.
It’s like an epidemic that continues to cause bad decisions,
or just, or just maybe this life is fiction.
False from the start,ย
which is why so many of us seem to have such a cold heart.
I know you may be sitting there thinking that my words are absurd,ย
but I feel as though I continue to be heard.
Peculiar is what they call the mind of a manย
who allowed his actions to get himself
caged forever.
Somewhat ill.
Brainless, so I guess you could sayย
I was paralyzed from the neck up.
Aggressive.
Rooted in oppression
is what hindered my progression,
a cold life lesson.
See, we all got the same start and the same finish, but we
fight and compete for the difference, and we call that winning.
Am I tripping?
I’m just a product of bad decisions, actions,ย
showing that I was kind of condescending and now I’m,
just now I’m sitting in prison.
Why am I dying to live, when I’m just living to die?
Like that lady said in that pop song.
We are all fighting to live,
but we are living to die.
We are born to live,
but we live to die.
We are dying to live,
but we are living to die.
And in the meantime,
we are trapped in a society built on stratification,
divided by our differences.
When y’all look into my eyes,ย
I want you to try to see yourself.
Let me repeat myself.
When y’all look into each other’s eyes,ย
I want you to try to see yourself, because
to love humanity is the true essence of loving yourself.
So before you leave here today,
before you hang up on this call today,
I want you to ask yourself:
What’s love to you?
What’s winning to you?
What’s living for you?
