I was 18 when I caught my case because I was deeply in love. I wanted to show the man I was madly in love with that I could be down and do nearly anything for him. Sadly, when I was caught, I took fault because I had a part. He hated me for it, but as much as he did, he faked it and would butter me up by writing to me, saying he loved me and wanted me as his wife under the condition of saying he had nothing to do with the case, and it was all me. I said no because not only did I take a life, I took my own and also my innocent child.
Being locked up at a young age, I was suicidal because my family disowned me. Being as close to my home as I wanted to have my family still be my raiders, but no answers, no visits, no letters, and no calls, and it hurts because the man I was trying so hard to need wouldn’t even be there for me and he had everyone against me. Soon, nightmares and fears were catching up to me. I slowly just stopped my selfishness of giving up and forgiving and looked for my victim’s forgiveness as well as all of my hells and walls to my darkest day! Started to become well-paid!
I got sentenced to 15 years, and in 2021, I got my family back in my life. I also get to talk to my son every weekend, and even though through the six I’ve been down and lost of loved ones, I stay standing tall. My best childhood memory is always preparing dinner for my family and spoiling them with care and love. Growing up with my father, sister, and no mother and not knowing her was hard, but it made me stronger and realize that stepping up also took the little girl in me to miss my dreams, but I wouldn’t change it for the world. I want to share three poems I love for anyone to read and love for themselves.
Poem # 1
Devil In Disguise
Drugs come disguised. They are Adam and Eve with tricks up their sleeves. They catfish us when we are not looking, seeking on the weak. They even mind f**k us so that we end up trapped, and we pull up with them straps. Numbness, painful love, we soon can’t get enough of Adam and Eve. Soon, we feel like our loved ones, no one’s love is real. Adam and Eve, they’ve robbed us blind. It’s shocking even to see or believe that soon we will start to fiend for Adam and Eve. Fighting for our lives, wishing the chainz would break, so would the heart ache. Left, chose Adam, Eve can’t this be a dream hard to walk away from, and all that is left to do is kick and scream? See what I mean, Adam, Eve, disguised with the devil inside? Open your eyes now because I just made you realize.
Poem #2
Prison Chainz Eventually Do Break
We’ve all made mistakes, we made many heartaches in selfish ways, life wasn’t supposed to be a piece of cake some say we can’t escape. So incarceration makes us feel safe, a comfort place.
Precision Chainz Eventually Do Break..
Some days will get overpaid and take precious lives away to a better place.
Even may take the beautiful smile off our faces but, times in place. So stop, breathe from the streets you’ve always had to race, face.
Precision Chainz Eventually Do Break…
This isn’t the end of the prison ways, …………
So smile for the better. Even if it’s forever, still be the beautiful, Handsome you. Clever as ever.
Poem #3
Darkest Days
Darkest days I’m in my own grave. My souls getting crushed inside of me. I’m out of crying. Please take my body to the deepest sea. Darkest days, I overpaid, it’s getting overrated, and I’m overstayed. Can I leave today and not wake up any more days? Lost of my words, nothing left to say. Lay black and white roses at the bay of where my grave will lay. Shhh, we will meet again someday. Darkest days, I’ll be the one to pay the price on my dying days. Welcome to the Darkest Days.
I love how you contacted us because the unheard voices will now be awakened. I’m blessed to let you know “me”!
