We do not have a voice in here, we are silenced and ignored. I believe more programs should be implemented for offenders. We need to be shown a different way from our past life.
Incarcerated: 12 years
Housed: Chillicothe Correctional Center, Missouri
I am convicted of 2nd degree murder, 2 armed criminal actions and 1st degree attempted robbery. I had recently turned 18 when I was arrested. I have a 15 year sentence which I am at the end of. Before I was incarcerated, I attended Alton High School and was supposed to graduate two months before my arrest. In summary about my conviction, my ex-boyfriend and I attempted to rob a civilian and the entire situation got out of control, resulting in the death of our victim. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of this tragic incident. The crime lasted five minutes but changed the direction of my life and dreams forever. Being incarcerated in Missouri is simply miserable and unforgettable. It is hard to be a better person for society in here. An individual has to want to change for the better.
The things and situations I’ve witnessed in the past 12 years is enough to give an individual PTSD. There are better alternatives for at least 80% of the prison population. I will never forget this place. The prison system is broken and complicated because the people who run this place don’t care. Inmates do not have a voice here, we are silenced or ignored. We are being rehabilitated within the cycle of destruction. I believe more programs should be implemented for offenders. We need to be shown a different way from our past life. The prison institution should screen the morals and values of the people they decide to hire. Staff members should model fairness, respect, honesty and positivity. I missed the birth of my nieces and nephews and I’ve missed growing up with my siblings. Missing my family and living thousands of miles away is the most difficult part of my incarceration. This institution is a place where people still feel alone even though they are surrounded by hundreds of people.