I am a domestic violence survivor as well as an abuser. At four years old, my house was shot up over disputes. At five, my mother was stabbed over thirty times while I jumped on the man’s back, trying to protect her, only to be thrown against the wall and knocked out. I woke up to detectives, and that was my first police report.
Then, I moved in with my grandmother because of my mother’s drug addiction. Then my grandma got sick and died. When I was seven, I moved back in with my mom, and in that year, she was shot for the first time, and it wasn’t the last. Now we have moved yet again. If I haven’t expressed it, we moved around quite a bit, so I didn’t have many friends for a long period. Then, at nine, my mom graduated from college, only to be murdered a year later. I lost my mother to domestic violence.
Now, all these years later, I am being held against my will for domestic violence. I get out this May 2024, and I don’t know what I will do. I want to use my story to help others. This trauma has prevented me from having a full life. I have ruined football and track scholarships and relationships with my family and friends and tried but don’t know how to change. I have been operating off negativity. The universe keeps blessing me, but I keep squandering those very blessings.
I am trying to be a better human being, but I did not develop the proper skills in dealing with my anger, so I am asking that you help me find a way to tell my story in a way that doesn’t offend my victims and helps me help others. I am not a saint by any means, but I do want to be a better person. I would like to sit down with someone and come up with the dialogue to tell my story.
I am looking forward to hearing from you soon.
