Even in our darkest hours, God will use situations and circumstances around us to show us that He is STILL the answer.
Even in our darkest hours, transformation is possible when we let go and let God in. I was sentenced to ten years mandatory and have served three years of my sentence. Walking into my fourth year, I am beyond proud to say I have made a COMPLETE transformation.
When I first started my time, I was reckless, hot-headed, nonchalant, a child playing adult. I knew nothing about the lifestyle I chose to endeavor in, yet there I was, acting as if I was mentally and physically prepared to do ten years, day for day. Throughout my first year, I stayed in trouble, STAYED into some nonsense. I can’t say I was looking for it, but it always seemed to find me. Eventually, I was packed up from my facility and transferred to another due to my poor behavior.
After three months of seclusion, nothing of what I remembered was the same. The aura of the entire compound was different. It took me months to figure out there was nothing “different” it was God changing my perspective on how I did my time. I prayed three months straight for Him to guide me down the right path and involve me only in things that were meant to better me. He did just that. God has not only put me into a circle of women who want nothing but the best for me, but has also taken away the taste of drugs, the need to react to negativity, and the desire to cause havoc. He has given me the desire to love those around me and spread light in place of darkness.
I am now one of our peer facilitators for many programs. I have an abundance of ladies who confide in me, even if it’s just as simple as needing a hug. I have friends who hold me accountable. I have been able to take therapy-based classes. God has shown me I have purpose even while incarcerated.
I guess what I’m trying to say is… even in our darkest hours, God will use situations and circumstances around us to show us that He is STILL the answer. He is STILL listening. He is STILL in our corners, even when we choose wrong. I hope my experience helps someone in the same mindset I used to be in, just give in and let God rizz up your life. All we have to do is ask.
