Money, drugs, and power made me show restraint
It blinded me and kept me from taking that leap of faith
For years I felt my heart was in the wrong place
Like I built a new identity and the old one was erased
Years of suppressing who I truly was
Kept me from happiness and appreciating who I truly loved
When I was imprisoned I took it as a sign from above
The Holy One’s guidance truly went from push to shove
A clouded mind only shows rain and gloom
When people asked me when will I change, I told them soon
Really I meant never, I was so lost I couldn’t choose
I was so confused even lies became the truth
I was troubled but, does anyone really pay attention to the youth
They pass the blame on to society
But, I refuse to accept their excuse
I tell them it’s the same old story
Why don’t you come up with something new?
