Erik, 52
Incarcerated: 7 years
Housed: Chuckawalla Valley State Prison, Blythe, California
In the three years I spent fighting my case, I was the Head Trustee in the county jail dorm where I was housed. I was always doing my best for my fellow inmates and the jail staff alike, always letting my Hasidic beliefs guide me. Whenever a dispute arose, I would do all I could to bring the various sides together and help resolve differences. Through my actions, I gained respect, regardless of race, gender identity or creed. Even though I considered myself a cis-gender male, I helped many members of the LGBTQ+ community gain acceptance and understanding from other inmates that, quite often, embraced preconceived bias toward the LGBTQ+ community. One of my most profound interventions was when two inmates were preparing to fight. I brought the various groups rallying around their friends together and made a statement I know they will never forget, “You should settle this like men.” They took it as I imagined they would, thinking that I was promoting violence. After a dramatic pause I continued, “by talking it out.” I went on to explain the civilized way to settle differences is not through violence but dialogue. In their shock and awe many of those around stated they had never heard that phrase used like that before. I knew I had changed perceptions, minds and hearts for the better. I am happy to have contributed to a peaceful environment.
Before I became a trustee, there were fights every weekend in that dorm. After my appointment, we had roughly one fight per year in my two and a half years. I have found that by doing our best for ourselves and those around us we can make the world a better place, even while incarcerated.
A Love Everlasting
Passing through the realm of thought and action physical beings find a mutual attraction
Ride upon the pinnacle of sensuality, a culmination of geniality and rhapsody
Sense alive, pressed together, two bodies strive
Natural reaction to the spirit of Love inside
Eternity – a moment experienced at the same time
Protean movement, the climax they bring
Sentient emotions, desire and pleasure the well-spring
Souls born to this Earth at the right place and time
A euphoric, carnal connection
Their impassioned essence infinitely entwined
For the Sake of Love
If I look deep into those sky blue eyes. I can see the reflection of a dawning sunrise.
A brand new day to replenish our ways. A reprieve from what drew us apart.
The tumultuous road we found ourselves on. Past grievances and hurtful wrongs.
Our salvation knowing each other’s hearts. Find solace in casting aside the frivolous parts.
I go to her now to hold her hand. Fingers interwoven, like soft and lacy silk strands.
Bound together, our eternal true love.
A passionate kiss, two bodies pressed sung.
Remember the Night
In the heat of passion, bare skin glowing in the moon lit night.
Cool air and bright stars passing by, lost to the senses out of sight.
Skin soft and warm, supple to the touch. Eyes flash and shine tussles of hair lightly brush.
Every movement in unison and precise. Develop into feelings of mutual device.
Arms wrapped in a tangle of the love you both share.
Happy to use it all up, not a drop to spare.
The efficacious result a memory in time.
Renewed in the heart on a lonely, moon lit night.
Riding the Storm
On the shore of a raging sea
My thoughts are only of thee
As the tempest gains its strength
I hope for affection and peace, a love that shall never cease
In its height, crashing waves, high winds
can’t hear a sound
My voice so soft and timid, lost in the din, never found
Churning tides, whirlpool spin, icebergs collide
If only I could know the thoughts and feelings you hide
Boats capsize, lives gone by, breakers 100 feet high
Although you ignore me I still have to try
As the storm subsides, the clouds part, waters calm, the sun shines
Our love everlasting, overcome conflict and adversity all in due time
